No idea of my life

I will be a real nurse in one year in China. But i have no idea of my future life. i am afraid of the step between the student and an adult. During these days, my classmates choose the hospital which they really want to work for. Some of them have the "Special Relationship" of the headmaster of that hospital. But what can i do?

My mother tell me to contiune my study. But in my opinion i want to go to work first and the i can have the study during my working. Although it was difficult for me to do it. What can i do?

And my father has a really stupid idea of my future. he adviced me to go abroad. i said it was stupid because my family has no money for me to go abroad.

These three choice made me go mad and crazy.

I really hate choices when i was young i had to choose who will be my future parent between my dear mother and my dear father.

Oh,my God. What can i just do now?