I still care about you

I know that you are happy now. And I hope you’ll always be. But what you did to me, gave me pain and jealousy. You said we could only be friends, but it wasn’t that we wanted. But you were afraid for what they other would say if you and I were together as boyfriend and girlfriend. It has been a long time since we really had a talk. Each time we meet, it's filled with saliency. I know they other boys are the reason for that thing have been like this between us today, and another reason is that you changed into someone whom I couldn’t recognize at the time. You were never just another person to me. Of all the people I have met, you were the only one for me, the only one that I want to spend my life with. However, you threw everything away, by listening to they other boys in class. I don't know if I can ask you to come back now. But I will give you a promise. And my promise to you, HD, will be that I’ll wait for the day, when all the bad memories are erased, and when we can truly start anew. This is the only vision I have now, and the only thing that I look forward to now. Everyday we are apart, the memories fades but the pain grows which is exactly the opposite of what the effect of time is supposed to be. I feel as if a piece of my heart has been ripped out of me and I am no longer complete. This is because I have finally lost my first love for good. You lied to me, You used me, and in the end, You lost me. I guess even 2 years of sharing an amazing connection with someone who you truly cherish as a part of your life, isn't enough to overcome the problems a selfish and narrow minded persons can cause. You brought out the best in me, HD, and for that I will be forever thankful. Although it hurts in my heart, I do care about you. You deserve happiness and a second chance at the life of happiness. I love you, or I think I do. You are the reason for anything good that is in me today and the reason for what I may become. Although we're apart, there is no one else who will ever take the place of the person who showed me how to love and who made me feel special each and everyday. Because as long as I can remember you, it’ll always be you in my heart. An I want you to know that I still care about you and I’ll always do that.

Thinking of you and missing you

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