Forgiveness

For the last couple of months I have come so used to my own needs that I didn’t think of what it could do to he people who truly loves me. I know that I am not perfect I were just a girl who followed her heart and has opened it up and love two girls at the same time. But I always knew one day its going to come bite me in the ass, well it did. I lost you both on the same day and I have also kept things from you both. I have even let Kim in my heart and have hurt her too. She was pissed at me and upset with what I done but told her I just wanted to keep it to myself which is wrong off course and believe me never again will I do such a thing.

I am done I am going to get my life back the way it were before all this things effected my life. But you guys must know it was very hard for me to accept that another girl can actually love me nonetheless wants me to be her forever.

Well I didn’t grow with a lot of love just the love from my grandmother and my mother and off course my grandfather. But it doesn’t make it any right for me to hurt people. I never meant to hurt any of you and I am so very sorry that if I have done it. I didn’t do it out of spite I am not that selfish. But you guys can’t punish a girl for loving you as much as I have. Each one of you are special it was never a competition of how many girls I could get.

But this morning I woke up and just laid and thought that today Friday, 9 April 2010, I am going to make a change. A change to find myself and also the girl I was. This all has really effected me in an enormous way because its not something I have ever gotten involve with. Believe me I have learnt a lot from this and hopefully one day we can put this aside us and grow stronger and learn that the heart is way to fragile to mess with. I still feel each and everyone’s pain. And well my new adopted sister doesn’t want me to drift, she don’t want me to go back in my shell and shut the world cause I may end up doing stupid things. But I wont I promised you now I wont hurt me. It’s not the way to do things.

I am process of asking each one of you to forgive me. I ask you with everything in me to forgive me and accept my apology you too Kim.

Dha I am sorry for what I have done in between our relationship.

Meka I am sorry for what I have done to you as well none of you deserved it.

An di also ask myself forgiveness to accept the consequences of my actions.

I hope we can be friends and we can grow only stronger in friendship.

This is from the bottom of my heart.

I am sorry