A smile

A smile can last only so long. You know I sit here and think. No one around and nothing but silence is around me. My head is pounding and the only thing I can think that could possibly make me feel any better would be you sitting here next to me. I do what I am suppose to do. I have all those responsibilities now and it doesn't seem to me that my life is at all better then it used to be. I used to sit alone a lot back then too and it bothers me just the same. I would wonder where you were at and what you were doing, that hasn't changed much either. Sometimes I would hope that you were thinking of me at that very same moment - or are you busy with what's going on around you? It hurts the same way not having you around when I need you the most.

I am starting to believe that it doesn't matter what kind of life style you have - I will be alone during the worst of times and also the best of them. I wonder if that's just my fate - never allowed to have what I want the most? You.

When you were out there running you were always too bust to hold me. Now that I feel there's a chance you would do that you are forced out of my sight. That's all I really want, for you to hold me tight and let me know that it will all be alright. I miss you.