A Love Letter To Dha

Love

This is for you my love. I am sitting here in my bed as you are so faraway from me. I read your text early this morning and you said you hope I have a great time spending this day with my ex. I ask myself doesn’t she know. Doesn’t she see that it’s not him I love that it has been her all the while that nobody can make me change how I feel about her.

To tell you the truth I have never really entertain this day called Valentine’s day I believe that it should be every day not just one day in our lives where we make the person we love the most important. You know I tell you everyday in between our days that I LOVE YOU, ALWAYS AND FOREVER.

And that is what you are to me my forever. Nothing in this world can change that unless something really tragic separate us apart. There might right now be an ocean pulling us apart but you know that in my heart there is nothing in between us because every night in my dream I pull you nearer and nearer to me loving you each and every day.

There will come days where we have a fight and not too long we will make up. Like last night are earlier this morning I start to cry and you feel my pain. Baby you ask me why do I belittle myself every time I don’t do it on purpose it’s just an emotion that I feel some times.

Deep in my heart I cant say exactly where we will be next year this time but I hope that with everything that we have been through that this Valentine’s is the start of something new, something so amazing that only me and you can come close to. A love like this comes along only once if you let it go we will regret it. But know this I will never give up because I speak to my heart every night to make sure you are okay that you are thinking about me just as much as I do. I have never loved anyone this much in my entire life not just because you are a girl and I can’t find this kind of love in a boy. I had a boy once upon a time and he has never given me his love unconditionally, he couldn’t love me cause he loved himself way to much then he could anyone else.

Yes there is always the fact of the ex but he doesn’t matter in my life. He doesn’t matter in my life period. He isn’t who I want to be with. He never were cause if he were then I wouldn’t be here now telling you I am all yours. My heart, my soul, my mind, my body it is all yours.

I have fallen in love with you and every day I fall just a little deeper. I ask myself how it is possible to fall in love with this stranger. This beautiful exotic stranger. Her smile, her laughter makes my heart sway. I close my eyes every time wanting to see your face wanting to see your nose crinkle as you smile just for me. Only I can make your laugh from deep down in your throat. I love you crazy pet names you call me. I love when you annoy me with your emails, with your constant IM’s. There is nothing that I ever want to change. Cause baby you are my Valentine, my one and only, my one true love. You showed me its okay to be loved. I have learned so much from you. I have learned how to respect and love myself even more. Your believe in me is overwhelming. Your kindness is staggering. Just what I have always been looking for. This was supposed to be my gift to you. My heart a piece with words telling you how much I love you and want you. How I see my life play out in front of me. How I see what we will one day be. Just never give up on me and our love cause believe me when I say there is nothing in this world I ever wanted than to love. I never ever want to disappoint you or make you cry like I had all those times you shed tears thinking I may leave you. Baby I am still here. I am still falling. So never ever doubt my love for you. Lets grow together.

Lets never forget that what we have can never be broken its grows with each passing time.

Your one true love

Happy Valentine’s Day

14 February 2010