“The Agony of Life”

My full name is Gerry Dapitan Lua, 29 years old with one kid his name is Gabriel Josh Lua, who is presently in the Philippines with his mother. I have been in the Gulf for quite sometime now and still I’ve been searching for the best company to work with but unfortunately I guess my fate dictates all of the things that happening in my life. My career, my son, my family & my love life. Though, don’t get me wrong I’m still a believer. My faith above still greater than my dreams. I know for a certain that there is “Greater Power” deciding things, the creator of all, the “Almighty God”.

My careers. I have been from one company to another looking for someone who will treat me right. I mean a big well known corporation that says it all. A “multi-billions” corporation worthy of my life-time service, dedication, sincerity & affection. But I guess my fate is not heading there. As of now my string of hope little by little are getting thinner and thinner. Most of the times I blame myself but never God. There are concrete answers to all my questions why my life have been like this, struggling for a good job & good salary. I know deep inside myself that my fate is determined long since the world begun. Somehow I’m thinking is this really what God wants me, to be in this place or to take this kind of profession? But again I know the answer. The tiny voice ringing inside of me repeatedly over and over again that I am destined to be God’s servant not anybody’s slave. My destiny is to be God’s disciple, to be fishers of man not slaves of money. I guess my dreams of having a successful life drug me up to where I am standing right now. But then again I know deep inside of me that this is not where I suppose to be. This is not where I belong. This is not where God’s planned for me. God’s intentions for me to experience all this things are part of His greater plan. That someday all these will be used for me to be a good counselor, comforter & healer for a wounded souls. Yes, I mean clearly and I’m saying it loudly that I know though I’m still learning to accept my fate, I know that all these things will be used for ministering those who are “lost” and “without life”. I know that someday I’ll be on the right track, for I know that “what is it for a man if he gains all of the wealth in this world but losses his soul.” There is no greater task than for a man to love thy God with all his heart, his mind and with all his soul.

Nevertheless, what I have right now though I’m not really happy and obviously not enjoying is just temporary. And I know all these things will pass away but His words still remain.

God Bless to everyone who will read this.

May God be with you all.